Pointless thoughts....

How the time for dreams of the future seems to slip past unnoticed, until in reviving them a man realizes, with a shock, that the privilege is no longer his to entertain, that it belongs to those younger faces he sees on all sides, laughing in the tavern and on the streets, running wild.

A breath of fresh air

Even as I write this, the markets are getting ready to open up trading again.For the first time in Indian history the Trading had to be stopped because the Stock Market had hit the upper Circuit breaker,or quite simply put the growth had crossed the acceptable levels for a single day-over 1300 pts.

Now most of this doesn't really mean a lot to me but I  can see where the market is getting it's optimism from.For the first time in a long time we have something close to a decisive mandate, the possibility of a government actually being able to govern rather than constantly having to please its 'allies'. What the Congress has done to deserve such trust , I do not presume to know, but they have been handed the responsibility and now there is the hope that they will at least have a decent shot at being able to shoulder it.

While I'm not particularly pro-Congress or pro-BJP or pro any party for that matter ,it's quite easy to see primary reason for the sweep in this election.It stems from the fact that the Congress has a very clean and able leadership (although in the lower echelons it suffers from the same ailments all political party's suffer from).Right from eggheads like P Chidambaram,Montek Singh Aluwalia to astute politicians like Pranab Mukherjee.But perhaps the principal reason is our PM.The  sincerity and honesty associated with Dr Manmohan Singh coupled with his clean, down to earth image is a far cry from the controversial background of his primary challenger L.K Advani.And the less said about people like Mayawati the better,they don't even exist on the same page.

Here I must admit that it makes me feel better somehow to have a man like Manmohan Sigh at the helm with a young albeit untested Rahul Gandhi waiting in the wings.It's a far more heartening turn of events rather that say L.K Advani-the man who single handedly brought religion into mainstream politics and whom I hold resposnible for the Babri Masjid Demolition-as PM and Naredra Modi-the man who did nothing while Gujrat burned for 3 days and 3 nights even added fuel to the fire and who even today swears by hardline Hindutva which I cannot stomach-waiting to take over.

Perhaps my optimism is misplaced and 5 yrs from now we'll know for sure.....but even then if I were given a chance to change this mandate, I wouldn't -I sincerely believe this is the best possible outcome this election could have thrown up and that we have a lot to look forward to in the coming 5 years.

The most dangerous man, to any government, is the man who is able to think things out for himself, without regard to the prevailing superstitions and taboos. Almost inevitably he comes to the conclusion that the government he lives under is dishonest, insane and intolerable, and so, if he is romantic, he tries to change it. And even if he is not romantic personally he is very apt to spread discontent among those who are.

Saw it in a bar.Loved it.

Peter's Laws

(The Creed of the Sociopathic Obsessive Compulsive)

1.  If anything can go wrong, fix it! (To hell with Murphy!)

2.  When given a choice, take both.

3.  Multiple projects lead to multiple successes.

4.  Start at the top and work your way up.

5.  Do it by the book... but be the author.

6.  When forced to compromise, ask for more.

7.  If you can't beat them, join them, and then beat them.

8.  If it's worth doing, it's got to be done now!

9.  If you can't win, change the rules.

10. If you can't change the rules, then ignore them.

11. Perfection is not optional.

12. When faced without a challenge, make one.

13. "No" simply means begin again at one level higher.

14. Don't walk when you can run.

15. Bureaucracy is a challenge to be conquered with a righteous attitude, a tolerance for           stupidity, and a bulldozer when necessary.

16. When in doubt, THINK!

17. Patience is a virtue, but persistence to the point of success is a blessing.

18. The squeaky wheel gets replaced.

19. The faster you move, the slower time passes, the longer you live!

Growing up at the speed of light....

At some point of time all of us have wanted to be 'adults','grown up'.....the conditions and the time vary but the desire has always existed......maybe when you were 15 and your folks refused you a night out....maybe when you were 16 and yet being lectured on how much you need to study or you see your cousins partying all night and envy eats you up.....as I said it's different for all of us but the desire's been there, lurking at the back of our minds...a potential solution to all our problems real or imagined.

But then.... how do you decide at what point you pass from being a carefree guy to a responsible adult.Is there a point in your life that defines this transition- a decision you took ? A choice you made ?Your 18th b'day?Your 21st? 

 I recently heard a saying-"The problem with being an adult is that you're already 10 decisions into it before you realize where you are."

When you think about it-it's true.I mean sure I'm still in College ,I got my whole life laid out in front of me and in many ways I'm still ignorant of the true meaning of adulthood...But I've already made a series of decisions that will define the direction my life will take.Decisions that can't be undone and whose impact knowingly or unknowingly I'll feel 30 yrs from now.

Another year and I'm out of college.....is that when I'm officially an adult?or am I already one?

Asking for anyone else's opinion on the matter is pointless-your mom's always going to think of you as 12 yrs old,your dad probably feels you became an adult 5 yrs ago and your friends.....well they're more likely to  think of you as being at par with them what ever that may be.It's a decision I'll have to make on my own.....

And I must admit it's not something I'm comfortable with.Sure the inherent freedom that comes with it is great,as is the having control over your own life ...but then when i think about it , what was also great was when i was 15 and where the only concern in life is passing the next exam and trying to get the cutest girl in your class to say yes to you.

It's the decisions that weigh you down . 

 

Ninja robots-I Loved it as a kid

absolutely amzaing-"Only the earth's teenage warriors can unleash the great ninja powers.....".........

Inertia

Inertia-the tendency of a body to oppose a change in it's sate, whether stationary or in motion.

Now the full meaning of this word- well I understand it just about 2-3 weeks before the

 exams.Cause that's when it becomes inertia of the mind.

Quite simply put, my brain has been in such a state of lethargy throughout the semester that when the time comes for it to show it's worth....inertia....nothing , for the 1st week of my preparation I go through barely 2 pages a day if that.I know I have to study, I know I'm in deep deep trouble, I know I can't afford to waste any time, but the knowing doesn't help me at all.My brain just refuses to work

Take today for instance-barely 2 weeks to go before my prac's start, half a dozen journals to complete, a project and an assignment due and yet here I am writing a lousy blog that no one's going to read.And even as I'm writing this blog , I'm trying to find someway to while away tonight, to postpone the studying to tomorrow... it's quite amazing the heights of laziness that my brain can force me to reach, it truly is.

But then I guess at some point of time , the inertia does wear off, and the 2 pages a day becomes 2 chapters...only problem is more often than not,by the time the inertia's gone, I'm in way way over my head.

PLEASE EXPLAIN....

"You may be written this way

Spun in strands sewn in thread

Blood woven to the child you once were

Huddled in the fold of night

And the demons beyond the corner

Of your eye stream down

A flurry of arachnid limbs

Twisting and tumbling you tight

To feed upon later.

You may be written this way

Stung senseless at the side of the road

Waylaid on the dark trail

And the recollections beyond the corner

Of your eye suckle in the mud

Dreadful fluids seeping

From improbable pasts

And all that might have been.

You would be written this way

Could you crack the carcass

And unfurl once more

The child you once were"

Random

In my dreams I come face to face with myriad reflections of myself, all unknown and passing strange. They speak unending in languages not my own and walk with companions I have never met, in places my steps have never gone.

-Rhivi saying

Just this once more....

'Just this once more.....more specifically 'just this one exam more' It's what I said to one of my friends not 2 days ago (in one of those phases of non-stop grumbling that we regularly fall into)n pat came the reply-'kab se yahi sun rahen hain yaar'.That got me thinking ...he'd hit the nail on the head I realised.Afterall how many times have I heard it....how many times am I likely to hear it again.

Back when I was in 10th, all I heard was 'jus this one exam' , n then 11th -12th...imagine the fun you'll have -girls- parties the whole gamut.That did'nt exactly turn out as planned, don't get me wrong I had a lotta fun in school,just ...........that expectations were'nt met-my classmates'll know what I mean:).

Then came the competitives...the IIT-JEE's n the AIEEE's....n once more the promise came "just this once more",once more n you're set for life....afterall beyond these competitves lay COLLEGE...n all the images that that one word brought along with it(mostly conjured up due to repetitve watching of the American Pie series).Now college has been fun...a lot of fun....just that again...expectation's were'nt met.We've had to work hard.....none of the easy going, no padai world that I'd imagined for myself.And ofcourse with college  came the term exams....every 6 months being subjected to torture(definetly not part of the college dream by the way).But then you put up with it, coz u know, do well up untill the 3rd year n then you get a cushy placement , so i did that.And well all i can say is the less said about placements the better...

N now again i'm back in square one.....futher studies.....CAT to be more specific.n once more the line is pulled outta the bag."just this once more",n thenI'm set right...15-20 lacs a year, lot's of travelling,Spanish ladies,Greek yatchs  and what not....right???I dont think so....

Even assuming I get through( :) ), I doubt the IIM"s or any decent management college for that matter let's you lounge about all day sipping coffee.And I'm also pretty sure that this isn't going to be the last protracted period of studies and/or hard work required of me.It's gonna be another 2 years of working my socks off.....n after that...I dont know.Something else that'll involve me working my socks off....

So the next time I hear "just this once more"...well.......... yea right buddy

Random

"The Wheel of Time turns, and Ages come and pass, leaving memories that become legend. Legend fades to myth, and even myth is long forgotten when the Age that gave it birth comes again."

The Wheel of Time.

Malazan

Kallor said: 'I walked this land when the T'lan Imass were but children. I have commanded armies a hundred thousand strong. I have spread the fire of my wrath across entire continents, and sat alone upon tall thrones. Do you grasp the meaning of this?' 
'Yes,' said Caladan Brood, 'you never learn.'" 
— Steven Erikson

--Malazan:Book of the Fallen